Looking Back

#LookingBack -->> I long for days where my goal was just to sing well in my lessons and coachings and auditions and please Dr Flummerfelt and Glenn and Frauke in rehearsals. Schubert, Mozart, Faure, Duparc, Poulenc, Beethoven, Bellini, Puccini, Verdi, Copland, Bernstein, even Brahms and Wagner were my heroes... so many others on that list..... Handel and Bach were a "necessary discipline;-)" -- Seemed so hard then and now it seems so far away.  #WCCstrong I adored singing and connecting with my voice to audiences and colleagues alike. 
I forget how I despised the long commutes, total lack of money, struggle to just get from place to place... and dreams of future. #MidlifeCrisismaybe#MidlifeMusingMoreLikely traveling, and attention were never the focus... results and influence and impact and personal achievement proving I could "do it" -- those were my my motivations -- helping others to achieve more with their singing was a particular passion... I dreamed of money but doesn't everyone...
okay I do love the women swooning and the adulation after a good performance with great high notes and intensity.... and excellent execution but who doesn't ... really?! 
#HumpDayHarkeningBack Need to stop looking that way, not going in that direction. Didn't work out so well for Lot's wife. 
Genesis 19:16-29 MSG
[16-17] Lot was dragging his feet. The men grabbed Lot's arm, and the arms of his wife and daughters— God was so merciful to them!—and dragged them to safety outside the city. When they had them outside, Lot was told, "Now run for your life! Don't look back! Don't stop anywhere on the plain—run for the hills or you'll be swept away." [18-20] But Lot protested, "No, masters, you can't mean it! I know that you've taken a liking to me and have done me an immense favor in saving my life, but I can't run for the mountains---who knows what terrible thing might happen to me in the mountains and leave me for dead. Look over there---that town is close enough to get to. It's a small town, hardly anything to it. Let me escape there and save my life---it's a mere wide place in the road." [21-22] "All right, Lot. If you insist. I'll let you have your way. And I won't stamp out the town you've spotted. But hurry up. Run for it! I can't do anything until you get there." That's why the town was called Zoar, that is, Smalltown. [23] The sun was high in the sky when Lot arrived at Zoar. [24-25] Then God rained brimstone and fire down on Sodom and Gomorrah---a river of lava from God out of the sky!---and destroyed these cities and the entire plain and everyone who lived in the cities and everything that grew from the ground. [26] But Lot's wife looked back and turned into a pillar of salt. [27-28] Abraham got up early the next morning and went to the place he had so recently stood with God . He looked out over Sodom and Gomorrah, surveying the whole plain. All he could see was smoke belching from the Earth, like smoke from a furnace. [29] And that's the story: When God destroyed the Cities of the Plain, he was mindful of Abraham and first got Lot out of there before he blasted those cities off the face of the Earth. …


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